Lesson today but mostly Star...

Had a great lesson today, even though every time I set foot in the barn I feel a wave of sadness.

I rode Domino, one of the barn horses. He was great, although a little zippy! We did jumping (score!) and Domi and I had the fastest score, so that was a mood booster. The I groomed him and all that, but I just didn't feel any connection. Ugh.

I know I need to get over Star, but I just can't! Everything reminds me of her and I don't know whether to spend more time with her and make the most of it, or distance myself now so it's less painful when she goes.

All I know is, my heart will break a little bit more every time I walk past the stable where she used to be.

Here's Star, being fed over the fence by Will (One of the grooms)

Isn't she beautiful?

So, it's late at night, but I can't sleep. In fact, I don't think I'll ever sleep again - the worst POSSIBLE thing has happened.

K's selling Star.

And the thing is, she's only doing it to annoy me/ because she can't ride and doesn't realise Star is amazing/ because she's a spoiled brat who gets everything she wants.

I can't believe that my sweetie is soon going to be gone forever - I mean, she could end up anywhere, thousands of miles away. I've been crying on and off because even though I know she isn't mine to keep, I still love her.

And there is zero chance that my parents will buy her for me. They couldn't afford the boarding fees - I've only asked a zillion times. So this is goodbye to Star.

I thought blogging it would help, but I'm just sitting here, sniffing, and looking at a picture of Star. She totally doesn't deserve this. She's one of the sweetest horses I know.

I cannot let this happen, but there is nothing I can do to stop it. Suggestions?

Laurel

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A bit more about me!

Okay, so you know my name, age and state. And not much else!

I love horses - that's the main thing about me. I spend all my time at the barn with my fav horse, Star. She's an Arab X Connemara, darkish bay with a white star. Unfortunately, she doesn't belong to me!

She belongs to Kaylee. Who is, uh - bratty? That's the nicest word I can use...

K is a total meanie, just comes down once a day and rides Star. She expexts her to be tacked for her, groomed for her, and heaven forbid K should actually clean her tack! So I do all these things, because I don't want Star to get bitter and depressed. And also I looove her!

Then there's my bestie, Paige (hey!) and her horse, Skyeblue. Blue is a pure grey mare, not sure what breed (oops). She's got the sweetest temperament, just like her owner. Paige is such a good friend and we have extremely looong Skype convos, like, every evening ;)

Gabbie - omigosh, this girl can ride. I really wouldn't be surprised if we saw her in the Olympics in the future. She also has an amazing sense of humor, and she makes me laugh all the time - like during riding lessons or math class! Her horse is Toby, a dark bay TB. He's fast!

There are soo many nice people at the barn: Brianna, Heather, Lucy, Quinn. I love you guys!

So there's a little oversight of my best friends, and worst enemies. Any q's, put 'em below!

Laurel

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First Post

I know, I know. Such an amazing title! Well, this is the first time I have written a blog post - hope it's not too boring.

I'm Laurel. I'm 16 years old, and I live in Connecticut. I have a great family, wonderful friends and a maybe-almost boyfriend.

If you don't like horses/ happiness/ sparkles, look away now, because the blog is gonna be all about the good stuff (and maybe sometimes the bad/ hilariously embarrassing stuff) that happens to me.

So hello, World. How ya doing?

Laurel

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